shitt

i jus woke up...
not too long ago...
n i m feeling so damn shit.
shall review wad i did ytd...

went to sch earli in the morning.
npcc traning..
the whole orientation is not well planned.
the good ting is
the formation are laid out
n the bad ting is
the moves are still uncertain
s h i t...

went home at ard 12+
weiliang . yuelong . evon came to my hse
evon came to bath
as we will be having a bbq later on
n the two guys got kinda obsessed wif ps2
after dat i finalli get to meet my LAOPO!!
m.i.a for one week
had a heart to heart chat...
haiss
s h i t again!

den went to east coast park
wad a stupid journey
shouldn't haf gone to bedok
my legs were achingg
n we walk n walked untill we see dis
"SMALL THEME PARK"
shit againn

bbq was horrible
not because the food was bad
i jus dunno wad was lackingg...
but i get to chat wif yihsien korx
kept discouraging me bout it..
it ain't as easy as its seems
having u to control it
instead of it controling u
dat's sick!
shit sh it s h i t!
left the place at 10.45
i barf at east coast
took a rest n tot i was better
so we proceeded to the busstop
which seems to be in london!
my legss were killing mi
took 135 dat was suppose to go to amk
but i could not stand the churning feeling in my stomach
got down at the middle of nowhere
n i barff... againn
i felt so weakk...
i could not stand...
he had to help mi up...
so sorii...

decided to hail a cab den
where i get to rest
sori yihsien kor....
reali veh bao qiann...
if i wasn't for him
i guess i would haf fainted on the streets.
realli sorrii n thanks alott...
onli reached home at 12.20am
farking shitt!

stop interrogating me cans?
so wad if its true?
forget it...

hoping to enjoy myselff laterr...

borinn

fat ass backk frm camp
true enuff.
my throat n ears got back to work again
can't we stop bickering?

last nite was disastrous
my dad was farking drunk
again... nth astonishing anyway
why? why?
why is he my dad?
so drunk dat he walk to my bro rm n slp
wth is he tinking?

but am puzzled bout sth now
deres this auntie hu stood infront of the
erm...
a counter wif all the *liang cha
my mum was trying to get the names of the diff tea
n she is so buay zi tongg
kept toking n toking to another auntiee
sumhow i find her rather farmiliarr
n she kept staring at my mum?
irritatedd uss...

my bro almost got mi into trouble
he asked me why my room reek of smk?
thx goodness mama din hearr
or she will noe i haven kick the habit

wow...
he's amazing after all huh?
haven got over him huh?
isn't obvious?
he look great in peektures huh?
isn't it?
but his gonee too...
graduation sarks!

ytd gradd nitee...
how did he look lyk?
charismaticc...
gorgeouss...
i wishh
i wishh...

bAskEtbAll rAwks bAskEtbAll raWkS baSkeTbaLl raWKs!!
weEeeEe~
yess i was late..
jus could not get my ass puntual
at lyk 6.30?
dats too earli
reach one hr laterr...

i was practiacally a mAd ger
today was area 3 games day
jas n i were lyk shouting at the top of our voicess
cheering for kian teck . wei hao . youxu
*idol!!
dey were too good
way too good `yin mu hua dao!
fighting wif phs for 3rd placingg
AMKSS WON!
got thirdd ...
BANANA TOTALLY SARKS!
but got to admit he's kinda skillful in bb
chongboon secured the 2nd placee
deyi was the championn
dats for the boys team

as for the gers teams
ok... nth to brag bout
though we got 1st
it was jus an easy win
our opponent were lethargic
obssesed bout their appearances i guess?
afraid to fall due to the slippery ground
wad's so wrong wif falling down?
i made a few slip myself...
isn't an aggressive game fairer?
deyi was a better match
i played against them
challengingg~

though he is reali a nice guy
can't he control his temper?
sir SI. a.k...
hope u will take tings easierr

supposed to end games day at 12
but the weather ain't on our side
so it was delayedd again n again
the whole ting ended at bout 2.30

went to mac wif ak . edwin . weiliang . weijin . weixiang . evonn
edwin made a move first to hq
so the rest of us decided to go xzone
i reali spend too much in arcadee
bleahx...
but whoo caress...
its a good way to let my hair down
can't bliff i won in a daytona game
against 5 strangerr...
cHAmPIONNn!
i was kinda high in DDR too
i earned an A dis tym...
havinng so muchh funn
forgot the drum tingy namee
its funn too
test ur beatt n rhythm
its amazinng how ppl can master the nonstop modee
got myself a NEW CARR
no lahss
initial d... `totalli rawkss!
regretted choosing a mazda!
kept losing to weixiangg
skills rustyy lee
see my card?
no starss dee..


pathericc...

`in lurv wif toro
to cindyy princess... toroo is my darlingg! he is the bestt

started off quite well...
met evon to haf breakfast
but we end up taking away
n bringing it to the npcc rm
goshh~
the fried vemicelli was huge...
compared to evons pack
mine is GIGANTIC
guess i look too fat
the hawker tot i needed more... X.x

required to attend sum farking camp
in pulau ubin
forced by mr black bird
i'm reali sick of that place
well for my atc badgee
jiayouss
its onli 2 days n one nite rites?

as usual dat "oR jIao" had a meeting
supposed to meet at 1
din noe why it was changed to 1.30
n he rattled for 2 and 1/2 hrs!!
the worst ting was i m having dis farking headache
but i had to put a front during the meeting
n yes... the pain got better
had to get over the temporary addiction
too bad i finished them all...

was crapping in np room after the meeting
mdm liren n sir garry was PiSSSeDd!
we digress too too much
can't blame us ritee
we weren't in the mood anyway

dat's when tings go so wrong again
made my way to s11 wif weixiang . weiliang . evon n yuelong
was going to haf my dinner
n after dat to the arcade
weijin will be bringing clothess for all of us
while scouting for food wif evonn
she suddenly said she wanna say hi to sumone
the normal reaction is follow her rite?
y can't she tell me she is saying hi to an idiot?
guess hu i saw?
DAT FARKING DOLPHIN
WHO FARKING HURT GERS!
fark dat assholee
the moment i saw him
i just turned my back on him
WAD IS SO WRONG WIF MY LIFE!!
why do i always bumped into ppl hu hurt mi in life?
why is fate n destiny doing this to me?
tormenting me over n over again
tearing me apart once more
this distortionn
everyting within mee
is killing me softly insidee
why din i slap dat FARKING DOLPHINN!!!???

was totali reluctant to go xzone
but i din wanna dampen everyones spirit
or show my agonyy
met up wif weijin
omg~
his shirt is so damn bigg
sumhow i had fun
initial d rawks!
gonna polished up my skilss
weixiang u waitt!!
reached home at 7.45
deadbeatt...
gonna stop here
haf to reach school at 6.30am tml
meeting weiliang . weijin blar blar for...
BASKETBALL!!

`qUit pLAying gAmes wif my hEart


edwinn . weixiang . weijin . evon . n my shoes!

er

how true is dis farking test!
not at all!
no!!!
try itt...

Love Calculator by EbonyScythe
1st Person Name
2nd Person Name
1st Person Gender
2nd Person Gender
Compatibility Percent	97
Time Together	Seventeen years
Quiz created with MemeGen!

damn boredd

could not slp last nite
tossin n turnin on my bed
my head is splitting
n i barf a few tyms
its not dat i ate alot...
guess i took too much of it than usual last nite
chickenn pien wo de
neh mind he had chalett..
haix

went to thompson plaza wif mum
needed to go to the bank
at least sth to be happi bout
updated my account
deposited my yearli allowancee
for my bus fare n of course
my desires...
but cum to think bout it
wad there to rejoice anyway
its an annual ting rite?

ate at a fast food restuarant
*da pai dang
its quite similar to crystal jadee
plus the prices are reasonable
i wonder how the food court attract customers?
when dey can get delicious food located beside the food court

my desires?
how important are dey anyway?
wad do i truly wan?
does anyone noe?
no...
no...
not even one..


*its gonna be another day with the sunshine... i hopee...

pics taken wif evon todayy
hope u guys enjoy these...
b4 i review wad happen today


sher n evonn *frens


npcc rawks mue farking arsee!!!


wad the hell am i doing?


of all these most xiang yangg

i had a great tym wif my frens
went out wif evon . weixiang . weijin . edwin
tings went on so perfectly
played pool at grassroot
wOn many games continously
took solo prints wif evon for the fiRst tym...
went to bugiss...
had a nice meal even though it was at mos
but...
a cheerful me soon disappeared
the moment i set my eyes on him
every thing today seems to go right
was laffing away wif my crazy bunch of crappy frenx
wrRoNgG
tears kept flowing...
had the worse trip homee
especially on a stuffy n cramp bus
wif a *buay zi tong guy
it was so embarrasing
couldn't hide the sorrows frm my frenx
feeling so tormented
thousands of needles seems to be peircing
simply lost the will to smile
missing him was so much better den seeing him
why?
fate seems to be contradicting
i kept all the sms
but desTinY took it away...
asking me to make a mistake by deleting them
n now
fate made me see him
why is fate n destiny making fun of me?
do they lurve to see me sad?
i neh bliff in themm
but how do i explain these?

i told myself i had lOng forgotten these broken memories
i thought that i had free myself frm those pain
n put off the burden within me
no ...
neh had i
the feeling deep inside
has neh diee
as long as the stars still shine in heaven
as long as the river runn to the sea
i will neh get over him
i can't forgive myself till this veh dayy
i din treasure wad i had

`the unconditioned lurvee he provided
the tyms we spend togetherr
the 3 words we say to each other
came rushing back to me again...


i noe dat i should get on wif my life... but lyfe live without u would neh be rite


reali miss u so much so muchh
plss take it awayy~

toroo

sum pics of toro i wanna sharee
ok i admit...
i was too boredd but isn't he cutee!
goshh!


he looks good at his profile! shuaix!!


a random toro done by mee! not veh nicee
but i did my bestt le!


noww..

















i noee it has loOoOOngg ended

















butt!!!!




















i jus CANNOT get enuff of *the champs!

`toroo n fionaa rawkss

the neh endingg storyy... aren't dey reali compatible?

ANDD LASTLY!!

learnn to treasure ur lurvess ones peeps!
u neh know when dey will be gonee!
i lurvee my mumm!! n my ass broo...
mUaCkks!

ass off to camp

FaT AsS is off to camp
finalli my throat gets to take a break
from all the bickering.
n my ears too =P
he will onli be back at THURS!!
ho0rAy to freedomm~

my mum is reali not in a right state of mind
can't bliff she use words so strong
n it hurt me
she kept nagging bout my hp bills
but guess wad?
it is onli $48!
so much cheaper den all my previous bills
its not the first tym dat she scolds me though
but she nehs speak in that tone b4
dun blame her.
hope she will recover frm her illness
i m sorii

was browsing thru 8 days
n i saw dis reali cool baby-G watch
its not the usuall big n bulky designn
its cums in pink blue n black
wanna get the pink one!
need a watch badlyy~

oh yahh!
my mum got a deal!
looking forward to pedi n manicuree
wow student $18 onli!
its a package.
wiff facial n everyting
jus cannot waitt!

made a shopping list for myself dis holidays le!
1. BABEY G WATCH!!
2. new pencil casee
3. a decent back packk *all my bag kns!
4. get my nails donee!
5. n ... wadever i lyk jus buy!! *fat hope!

weeess...
hope i did save enuff!

` taKe m3 aWaY fRm hErE . . *

change my blog skin again
tink dat the previous one reali sarks

the lyrics of tata young cinderella...
describes my current states
how true can it be?
yeaps!
haf to rescue myself
how much can my frens do?
its still me who nids to wake up!

many many tings to do for the holidays!
gonna haf to pull my my socks n get going
o lvls are cuming in a flash
I WANNA GET OUT OF DIS SCH
nth for me to look back...
perhaps its jus tings dat i done
unknowingly...

CINDERELLA
by: tatayoung

When I was just a little girl
My momma used to tuck me into bed and she read me a story
It always was about a Princess in distress
And how a guy would save her and end up with the glory

I'd lie in bed and think about the person that I wanted to be
Then one day I realized the fairy tale life wasn't for me

Chorus
I don't wanna be like Cinderella
Sittin' in a dark old dusty cellar
Waiting for somebody, to come and set me free
I don't wanna be like Snow White waiting
For a handsome prince to come and save me
On a horse of white, unless we're riding side by side
Don't want to dEpEnD on no-one else
I'd rather rescue myself

Someday I'm gonna find someone who wants my soul, heart and mind
Who's not afraid to show that he loves me
Somebody who will understand
I'm happy just the way I am
Don't need nobody taking care of me

I will be there for him just as strong as he, will be there for me
When I give myself then it has got to be, an equal thing

back to chorus...

I can slay, my own dragon
I can dream, my own dreams
My knight in shining armour is me
So I'm gonna set me free

back to choruss...

woke up in the afternoon!
wow~
sori weijin weiliang n weixiang
wow all their names starting wif wei
dey ringed me for 14 times
stupid me slpt lyk a log
din hear the fone
rotting at home all day
simply had nth to do



olinda's out
its such a waste
she's versatile
n could manage many genres
without any major fault
butt!
i m hAppie dat slyvester made it
busybody reporters wif their nonsense
its already veh pitiful to be in dis state
having to accept his plight
n yet dey still rattle on this matter
its personal!
so infuriating! hmmppff!
it WILL NOT affect his reputation



simply cannot wait for my bro to go for the camp
liberated!
4days at sentosa!
see how dat fAt ass make it
heex!



i miss sumonee
butt~
guess we not as closee le
ni zai na li.
wo hen xiang lian geng ni shuo hua de ri zi



*wishingg... for a miracle

colours

my functions came back!



last day of conquer o
its tym to haf fun!



woke up real tired
eyelids heavy.
wad amazes me was dat i din doze off at the *miss slping pill class
short spanse of concentration
thoughts were running wild
hallucinations
daydreamingg
ok stop exaggerating
but i dat was how bad my conduct was
skipped chinese lesson
i can't survive 3 periods
went to mac wif jieminx!
dottsss



after dat went back to find sheryl laopo
went to evon hsee
din haf anyting better to do huh?
played ps at her hse
weijin weiliang yuelong n clement came ltr
yuelong n his nonsense again
he use the DDR mat to play games
a good opputunity to haf a workout though
shery laopo is saddistt!!
watch happy tree friends!
GROSS
n she can say *ITS SO CUTE LOH
viewd pictures frm sfogs
sum were quite frightening
but for sum
it was jus obvious dat it has been tampered wif



yl n weiliang were reali nice
i din noe the route for bus 76
n dey accompanied me til my stop
even though their stop was b4 mine
n dey waited wif me til 851 came
sorii n thankieww!!



I M SO PISS WIF MYSELF!!!
ANGRYYY
FUMING INSIDE!
i was so careless to delete ALL my msg in the inbox
stupid *DELETE ALL function
why can't i even kip those msges for remembrance?
was it a sign?
to get the msg across n tell me to *FORGET IT!
i wan those msges
i cannot forget him
why tk them away
i can't rc them anymore...



why mus i let go of tings dat i dun wan to

band 3

needless to say
i started off the morning
GOING TO SCHOOL
phew~
tml last dayy...

i dunno if dis i a big news
but...
I GOING TO BAND 3!!
i promoted!
can't bliff it
i haf always had the hunch dat i wil be stranded at band 4 again!
no no no no no!
its atonishing..
henry will be so elated to hear dis
always encouraging me
despite wad happen
not to drop a maths!
weee~

BUT!!
though its sth to rejoicee...
mel is in the diff band as mi
its weird!
i hate it when she gives the sympathetic smile
its so sadd...
mmel... yi qi jiayoux!

reach home at bout 7+
crapp ard wif npcc peeps
they are reali humourous
can anyone pronouce this ->*DUAL?
i jus cannot comprehend how on eath did yuelong pronouce as *DUDE
den duet?
he oso pronouce as DUDE!
i m burst out into laughters
n it definitely sound hysterical
bleahx!=P
witch liked!
to cover for his mistake
he say all words starting wif "d" is *DUDE
same goes to donkey
n if u wanna order a *DOUBLE CHEESEBURGER
remember~!!!
its "DUDE CHEESEBURGER
l a m e!

kaiwei n jingwen!
hmm...
i m reali contradicting
i wanted them to be togtherr
butt~
i oso wan to find out the ending wif yixuan
ahh!!
greeddyy me!

aiyoo!! slyvester ahh slvesterrr
wad happen..
no doubt he was reali weak tonite.
let me predict the results bahs!
judging by the overall comments by the *BIG 4!
i tink sly sld stay rite?
i still remember vivdly when lian say
*SEE U AT THE FINALS
though the results are based on votes
saying sth lidat meant ...
PLSS DUN BE ELIMINATED!

i kinda fed up.
wad is wrong wif blogger?
i cannot use the compose mode!



`damsel in distress x.X
does anyone haf the slightest idea why?



can't put my mind off sth
sld i tell my mum?
i frequently suffer excruciating pain down my back
n i'm lyk visiting the toilet often
is my health reali deteoriating?



wad will be the outcome of the champs?
kaiwei + jing wen
or
kaiwei + yixuann
ah sohh mee~!



anyway countdown to the end of conquer 0
its onli 2 more days left
enuduring those lessons
wo0tx
- liberated mee...
shag frm overwoking those brain juice
bleahs
though i neh use them..



i m nothing without u..

sickoo

boo~
i din attend skol today
flooDed wif hmwk.
heard frm mel i pass my amaths!
n i mean literally just PASS
so am i going to make it thru my probation?
`contradicting huh?



i stil recall how much i wanted to drop dat sub
nope!
its different now!
not going to give up on my studies



*ni na li dui de qi ni zi ji...
zhe yang ni du shu zhuo shen me?



will rmbed wad he say dee!
xie xie ni~



rotting away at home
list of tings to be completed
1. summary ws
2. sana project
3. maths hmwk
4. literature hmwk
wad else haf i left out?



i still miss you till this veh day

wad is the ending?

Fei Yu FEi Yu! ShUo XiAng Qu Di!



YeAh~
FlYInG fish beat the seagulls
back off losers!
toro n fiona so sweet X)
woah~
as expected
julian hee found his soulmate in the show
nice ending!



BUT!!!!
Hu WiLl kaiwei choose?
yixuan or jing wen?
bleachx
in . a . delimma !
rmb to tune in b4 9pm to see the ending!
tml~



gossipy me!
gosh
ppl mus be tinking dat i m such a AUNTY~
=pP



p.s:tell me ur views k? lets anticipate the ending!



`waiting patiently for the ending

the champx

`gan qing yi dan shi qu jiu zhao bu hui lai
meaning: once the feeling is gone... it cannot be found againn...



*ai qing zi bu guo shi sheng huo de yi bu fen...
meaning: lurvee is jus part n parcel of lyfe



excited over the ending
back *in-romancing the champions

hacker

sth difFerEnt in my blog rite?
dunno if it has to be blame on blogger
or did sum fCukinG aSs Hack my account?
if U are the one
forget bout it~
cAusE i ChAnge the pw!
AsShoLE u!

hate backstabbers

i'm exhuastedd...
reached home half n hour ago..
dead beat~
stayed in school to oversee np activities
as always...
i had premonited
dere are disputes
which are reali uncalled for...
can't the squad at least work harmonously
instead of all the squabbles



but i had a heart to heart tok wif evon
n i bravely admitted dat i did at one point
kinda dislike her
i m sorry~



looking at my frenx relationships...
i stumble upon the past again.
i din noe why i ponder over it
but it just came back to me
i m such a bum
a stupid ass!
i reali hate him alot.
as i repeatedly recall the scences
the more furious i get.
if i were to see him on the streets
i jus wanna reward him wif a tight slap!
being 4 years older den me
n still behavin lyk an ass
wad does he noe bout lurvee?
all he does is womanisee



fOok DaT DoLphIn!!



off to Do my proposal...



*w0rRied for a-mAths

new skin

new skin?
isit nice
sldn't be dat bad rtye i guess?
though a little messy...
peeps enjoy bahs x)

my cousinn carmen in india! miss them all so muchh! hais so pretty now le... tym fliess 

For today's post..
i din haf any programmes today
except went out earlier in the morning to get the gun change
it had sum problems.
den i went home n play til i go bonkers
but now is my bro turn le.
FASTER 5pm!
my turnn!



`PS 2 RAWKS!!


dis week is conquer 'O' de last week
looking forward to it!



anyway...
why do ppl haf to comment on tings dat i haf purchase?
i admit i was reluctant to go for the camp
but why would i gif up a proficiency badge?
do they need to noe when n where i purchase those stuff?
so its wrong to fall sick huh?
doubting how i get my tings
to me is lyk an insult to my mum
dey are gifts frm her..
n yet ppl say "if she is sick why she can buy these tings?"



wad is the mentality of being unwell?
not able to walk isit?
did dey noe dat i mus follow another diet?
i cannot eat rations cause it contain oil n milk
ohh..
for any one's sake
i had gastric flu..
why do dey need to say bout tings i bought?
did dey realise how would i feel?
being unable to attend the camp
i felt kinda sad..
but wad did they say?



but i guess i cannot blame them
humans are always lidatt
always presuming n making their own perceptions
but it hurts so much huh?
intimidated...
i reali haf to make up for all the slaking
its hardd.
reali hard..
it all voice down to my attitude towards npcc
the commitmentt..
how much haf i reali put in?
gonna haf to put in more effort



i nid tym to let me prove myself

WoOt` many days since i blog..
my account seems to encounter problems
NO COLOUR AGAIN~
can't possibly note everyting i haf done over the week...
ok a quick review of wad happen.



thurs:
finalli rented away the apartment at blk 155
Argh~
i reali tink dat...
WOMAN ARE VERY TROUBLESOME CREATURES
even though i m a female
i haf this kind of metality.
WHY?
goshh~~
gonna haf a "GREAT" tym wif theese tenants!



friday
haf piano lessons
went home after school wif mum
*HAD THE BEST CHINA LESSONS AT SCHOOL
can u guys imaginee?
wif ppl lyk mel . cin . joy
demons inc.
we were a nuisance in class
CAN ANYONE STAND IT?
my arms became a drawing paper or sthh
fUll of marks!
THANKS TO MEL!!
ohh~
but i'm not a good to bully person ok
i use PURPLE on mel
n she look lyk some abused kid!
PLUS!
Joyce was such a BODOH
dat she studied 4B handbook for spelling!
n thanks to me.
i was the one hu realised it..
PoOr GeR



sat
RoTt aT HoMeE
BUT!
Someting miraculous happen!
MY MUM COOKED DINNER!!
i can't bliff it!
shockedd.



duMbfoUndeD.



sURPrISe.



AsToNIsHEd.



AHh~



SUn
PISSED ME!
those boys play us out lidat
was suppose to go escape theme dee
in the end
all cannot make it
my mama was kinda angry
so i din went out wif mel . cin
I SURE THINK DEY REALI HAD FUN
*oPpS!
but its ok
BOught ps 2 le.
saw PetEr n kelvin lim at the game shop
Paisehh~
after months n months of waiting
FINALLI!!
DYnASty WARRioRs ReEAlli RAwKs MY sOCks!
GRRANd THEFt TOO!!
havingg so much funn



*i play to my heart's content n marvel at lil tingx ard mee..
Hu SAys Lyfe's Dull?

n my FAVOURITE!! ahh!! so stylishh! unlike ps 1.. but ps2 is cool though! `whyte n puree 

WoAh~ I wAn!! So cool.. imagine playing my fav games everywhere i go!! 

portable ps 1... so nan kann~ 

toro so shuaix ritex? =P crassie me!  

get a lyfee~

start off my day
the same lyk beforee
it is a daily routine..
h a i s

HaPpY bIrThDaY To TaY JoO hUi!!
sori peeps
i jus could not celebrate wif all of u..
jus dat i will be pretending to be nice
cause "U" jus irks me when i see "U"
dUn Wanna be a hyprocrite
h A i S aGain

learnt frm mama dat Grandpa
chemotherapy will be ending soon
den he will proceed to radiotherapy
w o w~
pain huh?
will he be cured?
hais againn n againn

it makes me wonder how hard isit to make a living?
how much does my parents haf to earn to get us by?
car...
the hse...
the bills...
taxess..
n my grandfathers treatment...
etc etc...
dat's a whole list of payment we haf to gif every month?
n yet my brother n i are making always yearning for more n more..
we are NEVER satisfied!
and many a tyms we dun apply wad we preach into our daily lives.
to be thankful for wad we are given...
to show lurvee n care ard...
BUT!
we are always cursing n swearingg
always asking for the best of both worldss
we can neh always achieve everyting.
why can't i be more sensible?
but seems seem so hardd...

*the storm wil stop n the sun wil shine againn

melinda's rtye...
she shares the same problem as me
n i wonder?
waiting simply wouldn't work out
if we are reaching out for sth in the sky...
she knew tings were impossiblee
n for me..
its jus the samee.
why not jus movee
den always pondering over the past
GET A LYFE!
its the past!
all the tearss n hardwork wun bring back the ones u once lurveed
saww it...
n understood it...

off for my fav (( x. th3 ChAmpiOns! .x ))

sorii laopoo

i m so SorI
so So So SoRi
sORi Sori SORi SOri!!!

can't i stop being so absent minded
i can even forget to give sheryl laopo a call
n i just make my way home wif evon n frenx
to do the sec 1 orientation proposal
can anyone tell me why am i lidat?
HOW CAN I FORGET!!!!

i m reali happy for ppl ard me hu found "the one"
esp when i learn about sth today
as i always say...
dun be blinded
treasure the one besidee u
dun be lyk me.

even though i pretend dat i move on... u always be my baby

so keaii

*amaths reexamination
i wouldn't say the paper was hard to tackle
jus dat i needed more tym for i ans i wasn't reali sure of
has the heaviest weightage
not practicing enuff...
if i am to fail dis paper
i haf onli got myself to blame

`wo de tians...
after sch had to stay back n sort out attendance
goshh~
microsoft excel reali gave me a big headache
i forgotten wad i haf learn at the course liaox
frm 2+ do until 5+...
shivering inside the com lab

den i went to meet sheryl laopo . desiree . zl . wj . evonneo . wl . blarr blarrsaaw he foolscape pad wif slyvester n tasmanian! itss so cutee lohs!

here is slversterr! goshH! so CUTEE!!!

tasmanian is so cutee rtyee? aiyoo 

dis album highly recommended by sameix!
`wootx
a compilation of Ronan keating greatest hits
its realli nicee
purchase dis at SMC.


ronan keatingg albumm.. nicee

wow~ spendingg to muchh lex
hp.
footwear..
clothingss
accesoriess
bags
gonna haf to stop slpurgingg... x)

*plss controol mee

this is my fav toro! so cutee 

melindaa?

peeps are back frm atc camp
wonder how were tings?
i reali wanna go...
can i go again next yearr?
goshh..
` y do tings haf to be lidat?

bought a pair of nike sneakers today
sweet n simple..
gonna haf one side lace pYnk
the other whyte
wun it be weird? =Pp

if we could not make tings up ytd...
how will we react today?
i saw melinda at people's park..
was it fate?

destinyy...?

or affinity... ... ?

i kinda break downn
though misconceptions were sorted out
there are many issuess dat disturb mee.
well...
wad should i do?
continue as it is?
dey jus dun understand...
i kinda tink it is pointless to explain.
dey dun nid to noe the real mee
it jus take the 3 of them to noe me
dat's enuff!

s h O o o~

ever wondered wad isit lyk in ger world?
can sumone be judge frm looks?
refineed n poisee on the outsidee
`xialan on the outside?
but wad is the true oneself
it is a rowdy world...
fierce

wickedd

jealousyy

where tone n gestureee matters
backstabbers get out of my lyfee
u simplyy sarks!
hope u noe hu u are!
one dayy people wil noe
u may be a reali farni person
but...
return me my money!

i hope to change for the better
towards my commitment to npcc
i noe i m jus to0 slack
but tings dat occur in lyfe
caused the sudden change in me
hope dey understandd
yep!
my status n presence is an influencee.
how many haf i disappointed?
i m sorii *especially jassminee n yvonne
i gotta move on!

haf to thank cyndi n mel
for enlighting me
it reali made me wonder
wad had i done dis year?
wad haf i done to make my parents proud?
wad haf i achieve?
wad haf i done as sumone holding a high status for my cca?
i haf to reflect.
for better or worsee.
this is lyfe!


plss givee mee tymm...

daphanee

i anticipated leandra to be eliminated
but shouldn't tings change a little?
i cannot comprehend ...
why daphane hasn't been the bottom 3 b4?
she can sing...
but her voice is:
1. not strong
2. not fantastic
3. not mature *n using17 as a reason ain't an excuse
4. not breath taking *it makes me wanna jus slp

simply isn't nicee!
hmm
fans of daphane...
jus my two cents worth though
dun take it to heart.
=P

dislike

hatee

loathe

detestt...

*was it lalu n gang supporting olindaa..
haha

din go for camp

i din go for camp...
`dots s s
n i bought x400 le.
wad can i complain?
well thankx mum x)
pampered me wee~

did this frenship meant so little?
we exchange thoughts wif each other b4
n wanted to forget the pass
why did she brin it all up?
no doubt i reali dunno wad i haf done
tings will be turn out this way
if both did self reflections n talk things out
does she reali wan tings to be lyk dat?
m i the onli one dat is bothered wif this friendship
n i guess i haf the same tinking as her
dere are right n wrong
n when i tink the other way
she will oso say dat i m wrong
did she realise?
i was disappointed dat a friendship of 3 years
fall me into the *dun cherished category

can't it be sort out?

atc camp

goshh...
i shouldn't haf pray to get sick
my stomach is bloated
gonna barf anytym!
been throwing up for an hour
n its reali painnful
could it be gastric flu againn?
tml ATC campp...
how can i attend the camp in this state?
i do admit i m veh reluctant to go
now... its lyk...

anyway after school today
i went to jubilee eat wif sheryl laopo n desiree
haf to reach home earli cause got pianoo
after the heavy meal
desiree retured to sch as she haf vb at 3.

sher n me decided to loiter ard popular
*my idea `woots
was browsing through teenage fiction
n a bitchy book caught my eye
so i decided to purchase it
priced at- $14.65
but guess wad?
i onli bought it at $4.90
wonder wad is wrong wif the barcode scanner
the cashier was dumbfounded to0
she seek help from the other staff
they din noe wad to do.
so my total merchandise onli sum up to $8.90
i bought 2 pens as well
g 0 s H!
wun they be making a loss?
dat book definitely worth moRe then $4.90.

____* dUmBfoUndeD mee

i.hate.people.who.lie.to.mee =P

tornn

tornn

by: Natalie Imbruglia

I thought I saw a man brought to life
He was warm, he came around like he was dignified
He showed me what it was to cry
Well you couldn't be that man I adored
You don’t seem to know, don't seem to care what your heart is for
But I don't know him anymore
There's nothing where he used to lie
My conversation has run dry
That's what's going on, nothing's fine I'm torn

I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
You're a little late, I'm already torn

So I guess the fortune teller's right
Should have seen just what was there and not some holy light
To crawl beneath my veins and now
I don't care, I have no luck, I don't miss it all that much
There's just so many things that I can't touch, I'm torn

I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
You're a little late, I'm already torn. torn.

There's nothing where he used to lie
My inspiration has run dry
That's what's going on, nothings right, I'm torn

I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel
I'm cold and I'm ashamed bound and broken on the floor
You're a little late, I'm already torn

sumtink dat brighten me dayy.. lurvee toroo!  

3rd nov

its been one year from the day we started.
just lyk the wink of the eye
ONE YEAR.
i haf to live with this scare engraved upon my broken heart
we are reali not meant.
i let go of those memories
dat has been tormenting my heart
miss those days when we are together
teasing him was reali fun
especialli when he gave the *HUH look
i realli miss him alott.
but wad gone has been gone
it hurts me so much
but i m dumb .
he is happilyy being ard ppl dat adores him
n i...
the one dat rmb diss day..

when can the pain go awayy?
stop torturing mee
i m so hurtt
my eyEs are lyk water tapp flowing all the tymm
mummy sayy it is not worthh it..
surprisee was i.
she din mind at all.
she ask me not to *dan lian
i haf to maintain a woman dignity.
i lurvee my mummy so so much!
still she discouragee
but wad can she doo?
its an open societyy
i haf the freedom to feel how i wanna feel.

my heart feels lyk it weigh a ton
i dUnno wad to do
doIng tings dat are bad for my health
ain't helping me anymore.
i feel breathless.
gasping for airr
everyting in lyfe seem lifeless
deadd
n still...

was havinn a good chat wif mama again today
she mentioned dat my results is reali badd
worse cum to worsee
i should just switch to private study
where i can maybe concentrate better
or forget the person i m suppose to...
i got mama de supportt.
i will look aheadd..

oh yahh..
silli silli mee.
wad are frens for?
can sumone tell me the answer?
THEY ARE CREATURES WHO FIND U WHEN THEY NEED HELP?
haha.
sometimes lying to me wun do any good
its lyk if u dun wanna share
jus say "dun ask k... my secrett."
at least it is better den lying to me saying:
*No onE knOws about this.
well well well.
wad can i say.
i m so naive to tink dat tings change for the better.
well...
just to naivee
apparently
i m the one dat is in the dark
but i dun mindd..
jus hate ppl hu lie to me..
i wun probe le.
Problems can be solved as it takes 2 hands to clapp
i m very prepared to gif it all to u
tings jus cannot improve with doubts
i guess friendship is so brittle dat once its broken
it has a cracked.

brokenn


brokenn heartt...

todayy

I HATE MY DADYY!
i hATEE MY dADDY!!
He sArKS!
I REALLI CANNOT STAND HIM ANYMOREE!!
hOW I WISHH I WISHH!
WO YAO li JIA chU zhUO!
But eVeRytym i tink of my mother
i will drop dat idea..
I REALLI CAN'T tAKE ANYMORE OF HIS NONSENsE!
hE Is DRIvIng Me So So So MAd!!

beCauSe of him
i wAs stuck at northpOInt wif sheryl
so veh sorii to my frens
how i WiSh can Haf fun Wif mel ai ai n cindi pRiNCeSS
miSs Ya guYs! *mUAcks!

i Reali fElt bad Dat SheRyl follOwEd Me.
n Yet SHe waS goIng "it Is Okk"
but I fElt So guIlty.
i m So sory...
luryAa laopo!

So wad Did i Do aT nOrThpOInt?

buy my year 2005 boOks Lohs.
weNt to PopUlAr fIrsT.
deN wHen pAyIng i saw DIs (( the chAmpIoNs )) mAgAzinee at the cOuNtEr.
$10.00!
dIN CArE wHeTher It Was WorTh it.
aNgRy Wif my Dad
cRasSie Me jus use the $$ my daD gaVe for My boOks To buy dat MagaziNe
FulL of picTUReS Lohs!
ESpECIAlli toroO!!

hErE Is The coVEr PaGe


cover page of the magazinee! so cool!  

Den wEnt PoWER 9
shop sHop ArD
sAW dAt biLLaboNg SlIng Bag daT i WaNted
SiNcE i Had the mOnEy
i jUs buY It.
hahA
sEc 4 so Little boOks To buyy
so i still hAd $$ leFtt aftEr buyiNg the bo0ks
` n O t t i . M e!
my muMm wAs like "aiyoo u use my $$ buy bag againn?"
dEn She Smiledd. =Pp
i knew she wun mindd
lurvee my mumm

ContinuEd WaLKiNg Ard
WeNt to Ts vIdEo Shop
tHe chAmPiONs vCd IS oUT!!
i WAn to buY
Y E e S h!
my nExt mUs Buy!!

FinAli I lAiD dOwn One buRDEn
knOw WAd?
* b U r D E N!!!
i bought ShEryl LaOpo de bIrtHdAy pReSEnt liaox!!!
i m glad i dIn buY thE UsuAl BeAr n STuff
sHe WAs showIng Me DIs cd DAt She reali WanTeD
i kNeW JusT Wad to do
i WAs HapPy Dat i Got hEr Sth sHe rEali Lyk
*thoUgh SHe Lyk BeAr lahs
buT i Dun FAncy Bear ARhx
WAd foR buY fOR AnOThEr pErSoN?

So ToDAy sPEnD QuItE alOt hoh.
But i M Not HaPpIe Lohs!
My DAd wIl One DAy DRIve Me mAd!
juS hate Him!

sHeRyl LAOpOo thx for AcCOmpANyiNg meE
hOpe u EnjOy The cd!

___ `cRaZZiE oVEr ThE cHAMpiONs

o lvl chinese

o lvl chinese is OVER!
zhao ju sarks
tien xie han zi oso sarks
i m so die - ed !
yeahh!
can't expree my joyous mood thru colours
NO COLOUR MODE!!
so sadd...

` i m free!

anywayy i m left to rot at engglish band 5!
band 5!!
the last band.
good ritex!
improve my year end frm a c6 to a b4
yet i cannot secure a place in band 4
neh mindd...

but those in band 3 will get a hell of a tym man!
MISS TENG MEI FONG
hahaha
enjoyy peeps~
u'll suffer under dat *KNOW EVERYTING* woman
but prepared to get remarks dat are not true!
i m free frm her!
y e s h ! ! !