its almost a month since we blog.
but really, mum got me thinking really hard.
i've been studying, whether is it summer test or any quiz,
i always thought "its alright and i know my stuff"
however god knows how bad my results for summer test was.
i was devastated, i couldnt lead a normal life,
i became anorexic for a few days,(not as if i made myself vomit, but i totally went on hunger strike.)
i hit myself real hard because i really thought that i deserve it.
i started to see light and tell myself, i was careless and that it will be better the next time round.
The next time round came, e-field and thermal quiz,
what lies ahead is still unknown.
another round came and i had vectors test,
I COULD NOT EVEN FINISH THE LAST QNS!!! even terri could do it.
maybe what mum said last nite is true,
i have to do some reflections about myself and is god giving me a sign?
a sign that i should just channel these strenghts to other areas.
but what she said wasnt very pleasant.
ALREADY I HAD A HARD TIME TELLING MYSELF TO MOVE ON AND CONTINUE TO WORK HARD,
AND HERE SHE IS TELLING ME SOME NONSENSE THAT IM NOT GETTING WHAT I SHOULD?
WHAT DOES SHE KNOW ABOUT ME?
I FELT TERRIBLE ABOUT THE PRACTICAL YTD.
I ALMOST BURST OUT IN THE MIDDLE,
THE BUBBLE JUST WOULD NOT COME UP!!!
i press the stopper, i did everything!!
but why wun it bubble!!
and it only bubble like 37s later!!
i did 4 times altogether! 4 times!
i shake till i cant control my sense, really SHAKE.
and i spill the solution, which i suppose is ioding all over the answer script,
HOW MANY MARKS IS DEDUCTED ALR!!
just tell me how many!!
i cant take it esp when its a spa that can score!!
i gonna focus! im gonna focus
no more weiliang, no more love in my life,
i want to focus.