ah yi is not going back today
ah yi is not going back today
ah yi is not going back today
ah yi is not going back today
ah yi is not going back today
ah yi is not going back today
ah yi is not going back today
ah yi is not going back today
ah yi is not going back today
ah yi is not going back today
ah yi is not going back today
ah yi is not going back today

carmen is not going back today
carmen is not going back today
carmen is not going back today
carmen is not going back today
carmen is not going back today
carmen is not going back today
carmen is not going back today
carmen is not going back today

kaizer is not going back today
kaizer is not going back today
kaizer is not going back today
kaizer is not going back today
kaizer is not going back today
kaizer is not going back today
kaizer is not going back today
kaizer is not going back today
kaizer is not going back today
kaizer is not going back today

SHOPPINGGG N SHOPPINGG ALL THE WAYY!!!!!!
i lurveee u guys!!!
yeahhh!!
NO INDIA NO INDIA NO NO NO NO!!!!

童话

忘了有多久 再没听到你 对我说你最爱的故事
我想了很久 我开始慌了
是不是我又做错了什么
你哭著对我说 童话里都是骗人的
我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂 从你说爱我以后
我的天空 星星都亮了

我愿变成童话里 你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局

你哭著对我说 童话里都是骗人的
我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂 从你说爱我以后
我的天空 星星都亮了

我愿变成童话里 你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护
你你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局

我要变成童话里 你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局

我会变成童话里 你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局一起写我们的结局

i can't slp...
cause my heart's been torn in two...
i so lost..
without u...

now i noe why tings are lidat
now i noe why we din continue to be friends
now i noe why he hates mi so much
now i noe why we are so far apart.
bothering bout mi is actualli...
A WASTE OF TIME...
if it is a waste of tym?
why why?
i was so glad he e-mailed mi first
nth else filled my mind
for all i wanted was to be friends.
we tok for a while, a three tyms or two n everything stop
puzzled of course but i din noe why
everything den came to light ytd
hongrui is jus a friend
n yet advices were: not to bother bout mi cause i'm such a waste of tym
n he would end of lyk him?
i din ask hr to be anyting elsee...
i din even ask hr to bother bout mi...
n all the more the tings dat came out of his mouth?

i all out of faith...
this is how i feel
i'm COLD N I M SHAME
lying naked on the floor...

why mus it be frm his mouth?
i noe i had took him for granted n i regret till this day...
so i guess mi trying to be his friend?
is out of the question forever...
n not onli haf i been heartbroken...
the friend dat i confide in most has gone too...
so go ahead n listen to ur fren's advice...
i ok with it.. anyway its a normal thing to hear such tings frm his mouth.
its not dat i got nth to clarify, i lost the will to already
wif ur tone n attitude... i dun see a nid to salvage it.

i wana becumm the angel dat u wan in the fairy tale story
open up my arm to protect u
u mus bliff, bliff dat we will be lyk the ones in the story
happiness n we will be happily ever after...

BUT I WILL ALWAYS BLIFF
TONG HUA LI TOU SHI PIAN REN DE!!!
ni bu ke neng shi wo de wang zi...

saying all those tings...
but does he noe how much i love him..
i lost it... long agooo n i can neh find it back again..
killing all thoughts to take the initiative...
if we are fatedd will we be together..
fairy tales are liess fairy tales are liess
the stars in the sky.. will neh be lighted up...
my world has been crashingg
i jus dunno why!!
all those evil tings came out of u
n yet i still love u.

wo ku zhe dui zi ji shuo.. tong hua li tou shi pien ren de

"It's My Life"

This ain't a song for the broken-hearted
No silent prayer for the faith-departed
I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd
You're gonna hear my voice
When I shout it out loud

It's my life
It's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive (It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said I did it my way
I just wanna live while I'm alive
It's my life

This is for the ones who stood their ground
For Tommy and Gina who never backed down
Tomorrow's getting harder make no mistake
Luck ain't even lucky
Got to make your own breaks

It's my life
And it's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive (It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said I did it my way
I just want to live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life

Better stand tall when they're calling you out
Don't bend, don't break, baby, don't back down

It's my life And it's now or never
'Cause I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive (It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said I did it my way
I just want to live while I'm alive

It's my life
And it's now or never
'Cause I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive (It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said I did it my way
I just want to live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life!

i m daMn daMn happie to see it on u!

nkf donation?
my arse! sell one to...
"MYSELF!!"
stupidly donated $5 to sum foundation..
but well i'm too kind dats y =P

suppose to deposit my remaining angbao $$
but wif swensons, movie n shopping?
i can onli put in $10!
so damn paiseh.
ask jaselin to help mi block so that the ppl behind mi cannot see how much i put in!
bought a sling bag, halter n a skirt.
hmmm...
the eye 10 is hilarious
scary due to the sound effects.
overall today was fine..
except...
im so sori to uncle zl n peeps.
perhaps i din get the msg across properly.
hope theree will be another chance to dine wif them.

i miss sheryl laopo!! =(

sumhow i tink sth bout u is gonna start...
an infactuation for her?
a relationship?
i dunnoo...

HAPPIE BIRTHDAY BEATRICE!!

IT IS SUCH A FUN N STUPID DAY!
went to j8 wif carmen n bro
n bro is as *TALKATIVE as ever
toking rots n nonsense all the tym.

but well all turn out fine until i called jaslin
DIAOx TILL MY EYEBALLS POP OUT!!
idiot!! bagay freak!! arghh!!!!
crazy mi! I JUS HATE IT!!!!
no one would understand the feeling!!!
no one CAN!!!

n tengkia! u are in deep shit for all i care!!
ppl got collar badge got name tag.
weiliang right behind mi no badge.
its obvious u are picking on me!
not happie dat i told u off that day!
fook off!

its been one year since the day i let u goo..
wo ai ni. wo ai ni . wo ai ni
siang ni siang ni siang ni
ji rang cheng jing ai guo ni yew he bi zhen zheng yong you ni...
as long as u're happie.
i'm glad n whole..
how can i ever forget sumone lyk u?
i love you

HAPPIE BELATED BIRTHDAY TO HUIQI!!
hope u lyk the skirt frm fox instead.

birthdays n birthdays n more birthdays!!
we3s~
ytd was so FUN!!!
i lurvee my yiyi flor n carmen to the core!!
gonna miss u guys so much again.
one freaking year~
bought so many things
actualli plan to go forever 21
in the end got stuck in fareast frm 2+ to 9!!!
bought a skirt, denim dress, ear rings, swarvoski necklass n a lil match ger handbag!
n oso a lil match ger handbag for mummy!!

took neoprints wif carmen n she is so sweet looking x)
in the machine
C: shermaine jie jie can u wait inside the machine? (her legs moving frm right to left)
S:why? cannot? ppl waiting
C: HUH! i wan to go to the toilet (moving move vigourously)
S: HUH!!! now? can control?
C: cannott.. i tink (movin n movin)
C: i tink can. take faster ok.
after taking... she totalli forget bout going to the toilet
stil can design her neoprints
C: Oh shit! i wan to go to the toilet!
the worse thing is i haf to design all n she haf to ask 4 shops for the direction of the toilet!

auntie kim's korean food!!
yum yum
we were the last customer n the last to leave
all the waiter n waitresses haf took off the costume n were in casual wear
but took our own sweet tym!

shEr + men + flor =shopaholics

fucking cramps are killing me
i missed my first class drill test.
imagine all of them in red badge n in staff stg
me?
pathetic sgt n a yellow badge!
NO TRAFIIRC LIGHT!!
i hate CRAMPS!!!!
thx to mel for giving mi the pills x)
realli thx alot...

oh, me too man,
i couldn't care less.

"Boulevard Of Broken Dreams"

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleep
sand I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah,
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone

Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me

My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating

Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me

'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah

Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I walk alone

I walk a...

I walk this empty street

On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams

Where the city sleeps

And I'm the only one and I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me

My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating

Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me

'Til then I walk alone...

it tearing up my heart when im wif u
but when we are a apart i feel it too
no matter wad i do
i feel the pain
with or without u...

HAPPIE BIRTHDAY WEILIANG
tym jus flies n sch reopen..
wif a new look, a new place...
n of course nearer to o lvls
everyday getting over u...

had a tok wif evon
jus hope she realli cheers up xD
u haf lotsa friends!
n dun worri bout mi okeas?
im in control of that.

so many homework.
so many revision
but every ting is so stale n still
i haf many many questions
i wanna shout it out loud!
i wan u all to listen
but no one does
my mum, frens, strangers, n...

why liam-e the first place n kip a distance now?
wad is the problem?
why tell mi dat the working world is even tougher?
why tell mi to face my problems bravely n tolerate my dad?
why make mi smile again when tings are suppose to be lidat?
am i annoying?
WHY WHY WHY??

why shout at mi n dun even gif mi a chance to speak
why dun we solve the problem together so dat misunderstandings can be forgotten?
why tell mi off bout wad ppl say bout mi?
why do u tink dat u're right?
WHY WHY WHY WHY??

why do u haf to mention bout the phone bill
n bring up all the past?
why kip telling mi wad to do when i dun even care?
why tolerate the nonsense of the creature when he can go mad anytym?
why do i haf to be controlled so badly?
WHY WHY WHY?

wad did i do dat ppl are lidat?
did i harm u? take advantage or say anyting?
why do ppl dominate everyting n i stand one side n listen?
WHY AM I EVEN IN AMKSS!!!
WHY DO I HAF TO LIVE WIF THAT FARKING DAD!!!
i did all i can to escape...
but nth seems to work out at all...


i.walk.a.lonely.road.on.the.boulevard.of.broken.dreams

HAPPI BIRTHDAY LIM ZHIWEI!!!!

its getting stale~
no mood to blog these days
wednesday was another dramatic episode
dun wanna mention it anymore
got a haircut n its so thin now.
ytd was uncle's birthday so...

HAPPIE BELATED BIRTHDAY UNCLE ZHAOLIANG!!!
hope u lyk the small lil cake x)
n pls for goodness sake
u noe ppl surprising u
can u act as if u dunno?

painted the class a little bit
realli feeling kinda guilty
for not putting in the effort
n today i overslept!
so so so sorri!

met zhiwei for pool at amk snookerium
sori cannot go out on ur real bday!
nick came for awhile
damn pressurising wif his presence.
met sheryl laopo at 6.30
den went to town n took neoprints till we are broke!
bought a lil pressie for weiliang too
n i promise myself i will buy the billabong wallet i saw!!
so damn nice!
got home real shagged n tiredd...
n i m declared bankrupt
no more movies, neoprints, cosmetics, n stuffs!!
i m gonna SAVE!!!!

I DUN GET IT!!
I DUN GET IT!!!!
I JUST DUN GET ITT!!!!

looking at past e-mails
why why why?
why can't we even be friends...
why...
u said i could come to u in anyway
u said i could tok to u
but why?? why?? WHYY!!!??

i played gooseberry today!!
so extra!! dun mind eh~
anyway pls cheer up..
it obvious how u conceal them...
jus hope dat tings will work out..
be patient n all will be fine...
we'll noe tonite x)

went to jurong swimming complex ytd
well not fun of course
sum fuckers was there
the funni thing was that my contact lenses kip falling
a BIG BIG thank you to the life guard there
gave mi solution n of course making fun of mi
some CHEE KO PEH!
freaks!!
crowded pool should be avoided!
MOLESTER!
seafood dinner was marvellous!!
yum~

today~
as i said i was a BIG LIGHT BULB!
n english remedial is total boredom!
boogey man is YUCKS!!!
so down to series of unfortunate events
n son of the mask!!
wee3ss!

so i just could not escape counselling frm my uncle n aunts
dey wun understand things i do
anywayi noe they are trying to help
but are they feeling wad i'm feeling.
so might as well jus pls leave mi alone.

n i wanna thank...

afiq: hey! man of my dreams!!
u too better take care ya?
haha. dun forget to dream of mi too lah!
lester: i'm strong n fit!! x)
n to annoymous ppl: thx n many thx

cant live w/o u . cant breathe w/o u . honestly tell mi dats it OVER

"I'm Gonna Getcha Good!"

Let's go!

Don't wantcha for the weekend, don't wantcha for a night
I'm only interested if I can have you for life, yeah
Uh, I know I sound serious and baby I am
You're a fine piece of real estate, and I'm gonna get me some land

Oh, yeah
So, don't try to run honey, love can be fun
There's no need to be alone when you find that someone

[Chorus:]
(I'm gonna getcha)
I'm gonna getcha while I gotcha in sight
(I'm gonna getcha)
I'm gonna getcha if it takes all night
(Yeah, you can betcha)
You can betcha by the time I say "go," you'll never say "no"
(I'm gonna getcha)
I'm gonna getcha, it's a matter of fact
(I'm gonna getcha)
I'm gonna getcha, don'tcha worry 'bout that
(Yeah, you can betcha)
You can bet your bottom dollar, in time you're gonna be mine
Just like I should - I'll getcha good

Yeah, uh, uh
I've already planned it - here's how it's gonna be
I'm gonna love you and - you're gonna fall in love with me
Yeah, yeah

Oh, yeah
So, don't try to run honey, love can be fun
There's no need to be alone when you find that someone
[Repeat Chorus]

Yeah, I'm gonna getcha baby I'm gonna knock on wood
I'm gonna getcha somehow honey yeah, I'm gonna make it good
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Oh, yeah
So, don't try to run honey, love can be fun
There's no need to be alone when you find that someone
[Repeat Chorus]

Oh, I'm gonna getcha, I'm gonna getcha real good
Yeah, you can betcha, oh, I'm gonna getcha
(I'm gonna getcha) just like I should, I'll getcha good
Oh, I'm gonna getcha good!

no way will u ever be mine again..
it can neh happen..
i'm the fucking one who gave up
i'm the bitch dat couldn't think
i'm the freak dat din noe how i feel!
i'm dreamt of u cuming back
n dat is all bullshits!!
I CAN NEH LURVEE AGAIN!!!

"Hold On"

This world
This world is cold
But you don't
You don't have to go
You're feeling sad, you're feeling lonely, and no one seems to care
Your mother's gone and your father hits you
This pain you cannot bear

But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go through

Hold on if you feel like letting go
Hold on it gets better than you know

Your days
You say they're way too long
And your nights
You can't sleep at all
Hold on
And you're not sure what you're waiting for, but you don't want to know more
And you're not sure what you're looking for, but you don't want to know more

But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go through

Hold on if you feel like letting go
Hold on it gets better than you know
Don't stop looking, you're one step closer
Don't stop searching, it's not over
Hold on

What are you looking for?
What are you waiting for?
Do you know what you're doing to me?
Go ahead...What are you waiting for?

Hold on
if you feel like letting go
Hold on it gets better than you know
Don't stop looking, you're one step closer
Don't stop searching, it's not over
Hold on if you feel like letting go
Hold on it gets better than you know
Hold on

should i realli hold on...
to this unwanted lurvee for...
when there will be no return
or hold on to this life of mine... ?
i'm glad u called cause u wun noe how much dat means to me...

its been drama since friday...
but i guess i took a 2 days of breather...
friday was the last day of school
I M GLAD I GAVE TENG A PIECE OF MY MIND!!!
saying i chase boys after school?
wtf!!
i jus gonna face reality n say
I GOT 35 for my L1R5!!
no poli, jc or even ite wants to take mi?
THATS WAD THE TENG SAY!!
i so glad i told her off!

went to j8 n took neos dat was a total failure...
stupid 8 beam machine!
but the day din end well.
dun understand why do i always go out wif pressure
went home quick when i knew wad happened.

my hse was in a mess!
nike shoes flying! adidas sneakers in the living room
new year snacks all over.
the photoframe broke...
n many other stuffs
I M JUST A 16 year old to be TEENAGER!!
why do i haf to face so much tings!
grandparents sickness, studiess, shits frm teng, problems wif frens, stupid interogations frm my mum, n my FARKING FAMILY

i could not stand it anymoree!! jus could not stand it anymore
in a week, it happened 3-4 tyms
go to sch lyk nth happened but got myself into sum stupid shits!
ENOUGH!!
so i ran away...
ran away frm this stupid home!!
it was great being alonee...
i lied to her dat i was going to uncle's place..
but i'm glad u're there x)
everyting seems so peaceful n relax...
until...
i rmb auntie's cuming back frm india.
how can i dun go?
i miss them all!!!
i miss BERNARD FLORA CARMEN N KAIZER!!
i wan to see them.
n now i m back home...
pretending nth happen at all..
going out to lunch wif aunt...
n hope everyting is fine.


i m so lost . i dunno wad to do

CUGU camp has so many changes..
so its postpone? again?

nth much happened these days
amkss netball won!
yays!
watch hitch n it was hilarious

n sth dat made mi mind went crazy
i was so calm...
shivers n trembles
but those eyes..
tells mi *GIVE UP BITCH!
i noe... i long noe.

4/5 play was reali good.
*CLAPSs~
demons alive!!
rock a bye baby...
felt the creeps.
skipped the stupid ACHIEVERS programe talk!
wth sign in sign out
its lyk i m under probation.

NEVERTHELESS!!
tml is half day!
but wad shit...
npcc service day..
gonna chiong lan n arcade!!
we3ss~~

AHH!!

hear me out...

you... YOU... YOUU!!!

when will he ever get out of my head, soul and heart.

tormented mi since the day things fall apart.

blinded by looks i did not follow my heart.

and bliff i love sth dat i shouldn't haf.

of all people it happens to be...

i did many many tings to forget him.

cheated myself n into deeper mistakes.

SHout and throw my tantrum on family and friends

spend my lesson tym writing bullshits in my book n on my table

blog wadever it is cause no one listens

pick up u2 because its the onli time i feel good

why? why? why? why?

i just canot forget how i loved him n how he loved mi.

i hate ppl dat i dunno n i critisized them to stop tears frm flowing.

is this me? the me that i used to be?

i love him n the onli tym i get to acknowlegde him is in my dreams

dreamt of him getting stroke n i woke up with tears

but i'm glad he appeared n tok to mi...

i dreamt of him asking another ger for a chance

thought it was heartache but i m already glad...

SHITSS..!!!

take mi away!!

i realli nid to forget him!!

set mi free from this trapped!!

I LOATHE UU!!!!!

No matter how hard i try

Good memories of u and mi always stay

Sweet pictures of u i took frm the web

How wonderful you look when u smile

Almost everyday i see ur face

Often it onli happen frm afar

Just look at mi once more

Into my eyes

N tell mi... PLS GIVE UP!!!

i definitely felt different these days without u

but wad can i do?

my hearts says you're for mi but when...

the thought fumbles

maybe it is better lidat.

at least i noe how much it matters

Hope seems bright when im with u

Onli to realise that all isn't real

N i lost all that u had for mi

Gone forever n ever

Reasons and reasons why i just can't

U will never understand

I'm sorry but i just cannot get over him

i m jus a failure in everyting

ATTENTION!!!
it the com lab computer again~~ yays!
today nth is going right
n i can onli say
I M TOTALLY PISSED!!!!!!!!
ok phew~

maths test today is good!
n i m CONFIDENT of passing it.
i realise i haf been living my life as a mouse.
a pathetic little mouse hiding in the small hole.
looking afar for the cat.
the cat that seems to be an enemy yet a fren.
talk talk go ahead n talk.
i can see the cat smiling to her when they chat.
how i feel? totalli JEALOUS!
but i thank anyone or anything dat gave mi the chance to see my cat.
be it near or far...
ramen at jubilee was good
n now i m enjoying the free air con in the lab!
trying to find a good excuse to why i pon anand's remedial...


did anyone tell u how wonderful u look?

i fail as a friend,
i fail as a confider,
i jus dunno how to put tings across,
n often mistaken as the bad actor,
if ppl would just take more tym to understand the real mi,
that would haf been better,
wad are ppl trying to prove?
who are these ppl anyway?
will they run away when crisis surface?
will they stand by you when the tidals waves comes gushing?
im the bad person..
the bad person that ppl refrains frm
jus as much as how i refrain frm ppl
its better being alone
but alone isn't good.
jus one n one will do...
i jus hope i din choose wrong..
neh jeopardise my friendships
cause i finalli begin to breathe
but still i prepare myself frm sth dat i cannot see...
am i the one dat everyone is saying?

I'm backk~
wif the empty computer!!
WAD IS A COMPUTER WITHOUT ANY SONGS!!!
can any kind souls understand the pain of losing 500++ songs!!
n those dat were sent by...
so peeps frm msn...
send mi songs ok?
good nite ppl!! x)

its the comp lab computer!!
officialli announced dat my computer is INFESTED!!
later going for training!!
lalas~
ok so sher laopo n mi juz budge into the com lab wif no presence!
not our fault
the big notice outside states dat it is open for our usage rite?
thx to the guy hu voluteered to take charge of us
or we will be chase out!

LIU ZHEN BO ARGH!!!
i WILL WILL WILL PROVE U WRONG!!
today was my last chance to take the test
but its ok.
JUS PUT MI UNDER VR OK!

TENG KIA!
asking mi to srcub my badly vadalised table after sch!
thx to laopo!!!
n gerald lend mi his inhaler n said it can removed stains?
n his effort to ask the aunite for detergent?
XIE XIE NI!!

to jacinda: hey i got 2 words cheer up ok x)
though i noe u dun lyk mi... it jus isn't good seeing u lidat.
u are a good competitor in 4/3
dun proved us wrong k?
everyting happpen fo a reason... but definitely for a good course
so take care n smile always k?
frm: sameix...

jac: hey gal...dun so dwn le k...its nt easy 4 u but
u gotta try..life ish full of ups n downs..
we juz gotta live wif it..
jac..hope 2 c u smiling again..take carex..
frn:sher*

ps: the computer in the lab: SUX!

i m so dead bored.
din attend sch...
`wth LIU gay gay jux called my hse jus now
the ting is i haven decided weather i sld drop or not
his sudden call let mi made an ans..
now i dunno is rite or wrong!?
haix...
how i jus wish my mum din confiscate my phone
den tings would not be lidat...
or maybe it will still turn out this way
now i can onli sigh n pass tym myself...
get used to it get used to it get used to it...

`gif mi back my strength!
so many hmwk to complete.
test to revise..
n i m officialli in the ACHIEVERS PROGRAMME!
should it be sth to rejoice?
i f*cking hate this sch to the core!

i feeling sick n tired..
so uncomfortablee
cant breathe!
but dats not wad is bothering mi...
u jus wun realise how i feel...
cause dat's jus so many tings dat i cannot share.
but it doesn't matter anyway
wad position am i to say anything...
feelings wil fade..
i guess urs too x)
im happie for u...
i'll jus haf to...

I HATE CHINESE!! HOW?????
reali dunno wad should i do?

GUiTAR RAWKSS!!