for today,
i loathe u, dun ask me why.
its always like that when results are revealing
or be it we are receiving results
i just get this really lousy feeling
AND IT ALWAYS SURFACE!
its not about losing
its the inferior feeling
and to make things worse,
its everything, EVERYTHING!!
whatever i do, it is always worse than u.

everything is going back
images started flashing through my mind
i am being ABUSED by memories.
brutally.
not only bad memories with u
but also some that came back when i saw this picture that i mentioned.
the picture that tore my heart apart.
AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN!
when will i ever throw all these feelings away!!
i want to remove everything that i have engrave in my heart.
4 months of tlc, what is so hard to forget.
get out of my fucking mind.

i need some one whom i can trust
i need some one whom i can relate to
a friend who knows me inside out.
shout it out loud and tell my friend im feeling terrible inside.
its been some time some one hears my woes
its been awhile i let go




just give me a few days
i guess i can make it on my own