the walk ard amkss was..
its was a moment of...
i dunno really.
...
its indescribable.

took my certs and yeap its with mr handsome
hohoho.
and he ACTUALLY FALL FOR THE TRICK!
hes the holder of the record: LONGEST dumbo, (i wonder who's next!)
that's makes him a NO-brainer.
gosh,
same goes for weijin but its not as long as cle?

somehow everyone was not in the mood
ended up arcade, arcade and more of arcade.
when i finally decided to have dinner at the suki yaki at cineleisure,
THE PLACE IS UNDER RENOVATION? or is it closed down?
see? that explains how long i haven been hanging ard.
not to fret, i have a head full of restaurants for baby and me to dine.
hees~ (cannot blame, look at my size)
come to think about cineleisure is not really a waste either
cause i bought a top.

both of us decided to go CHINESE last night,
crystal jade xiao long bao at scotts.
ordered hell lots. eat till my jeans gonna give way.
saw patricia mok, woo how i envy her figure.
halt to my bullshits.


today was bad.
i know just how much pressure im giving myself
that im not how i used to be.
its good that i have goals and aims and targets and. wadever.
BUT!!
why isit that i cannot be as confident as i was?
math, it all went dipping down when i was in sec 3
i let my only pillar of strength went down the chao long gang!
having a BF that scores As all the time is not giving me much of an aid.
its more of antagonising, and i dunno how to say what im feeling anymore
too much for me to hold, to much for me to handle, its just too much.
if only he's not SO good in paper,
if only he's not SO comforting,
i rather he tell me straight to my face that I SUCK AT MATH.
then telling me im good at it.

im more than proud,
more than elated that he is SO good in what he's doing
but can someone understand how im feeling inside?
its not that im selfish or maybe i AM selfish
but.. its been going on since we started.

i was a 28 pointer but he? 13!!
i was 29th in class but he? 2nd!!
i was given nth but a leadership award of $150 but he? a award of $250 because of academic results.
i was given a space in amkss hall of fame under leadership, but he? under EXCELLENT ACADEMIC.
i was screwed at by teachers but he? NEVER!
i was getting 14/100, 18/100 but he? was among the 5 who passed physics
i was called a fatty but he? thinner than his gf!
i was struggling in sports, but he? a gold attainer.
i was slaming my fingers on the keyboard playing a lvl 8 song but he? silently tapping the keys for a lvl 28 song.
i was trying so hard to passed advanced 67 but he? just once or twice and its done.

there's just so much more i can never stop..